Friday, December 30, 2011

Little Things To Do 2012

(1) For once... backpacking and throw myself into the wild

kalau rasa-rasa nak mati beku... kena la backpack...jalan kaki... pergi antartika ala ala Christopher Johnson McCandless... but i'm not going to take that much of risk...

(2) Grip on the wheels like a gentleman!

tempoh hari... aku belajar bahawa lelaki dan perempuan sememangnya memiliki kemahiran berbeza dalam  pemanduan. i'm not against women driver nor i defend all the guys out there. whatever it is, i promise myself that i'll drive handsomely... and my passenger can sleep like a baby without interruption from careless and harsh driving attitude...

(3) Running!

susah-susah sangat... tinggalkan kereta dekat parkir rumah - run 10 mins in the morning... and 10 mins in the evening! consistency my dear... consistency will promise you that beautiful leg!

(4) Moisturiser

mosturiser bff!


aku sedar bahawa aku berbicara dalam 'bahasa' yang kurang jelas. adakala, aku jarang menghabiskan patah-patah perbualan. pendek kata. aku cakap sesuatu, fikirkan sesuatu yang lain. pendam dan biarkan segala-galanya tergantung. jangkakan bahawa orang lain akan memahami. dan itu, jelas - salah.

janji pada diri. bercakap perlu berfikir.
apabila telah mula berbicara - habiskan lah dengan jelas dan terang.

kalau tidak tahu- tanya
kalau mahu difahami-terangkan
kalau mahu penjelasan-minta

pictures' source
p/s little things make thousand of differences

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Sleep Don't Weep - Damien Rice

Did Damien Rice read my diary :)

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
Your face is all wet and your day was rough

So do what you must do to find yourself
Wear another shoe, or paint my shelf
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I think I found a place where I...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
Your face it's all wet 'cause our days were rough
So do what you must do to fill that hole
Wear another shoe to comfort the soul
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I think I found a place where I feel I will...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
My face it's all wet 'cause my day was rough
So do what you must do to find yourself
Wear another shoe, or paint my shelf
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I hope I find a place where I feel I belong

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
My face is all wet 'cause my day was rough

Saturday, December 24, 2011

perhaps not to be is to be without your being

Beautiful and deep... taken from one of my favourite simple blog :) No End To Design

Friday, December 23, 2011

trying to make my difficult life harder it seem...
by the way... congratulation!
i'm giving you standing ovation.... clap clap clap...
you have succeeded.

*iman nur aima*

The Notebook

The Notebook Facebook uploaded some of the movie's scenes and i just could not stop myself from posting and searching for more from Google - i'm The Notebook freak :)) but i don't mind. Let just reminisce the scenes... it gave me great holiday's mood :))

Monday, December 19, 2011

Mengarut ll

satu... i hate packing stuff. i dont like the feeling of packing stuff and move away. masa study dulu. each and every semester, bila hujung tahun cuti panjang. all students have to pack their stuff, simpan dalam store sebab pelajar jarak jauh akan masuk and utilise the facilities. i usually akan cry bila time packing stuff. when final year arrive... waiting for graduation. i cried so bad sambil packing my clothes, my books, my shoes... my computer... it is more than just packing my stuff, its mean - next chapter.

dua... when i dropped my study... my MA. i have put a lot of thoughts on it. but dropping something that i first initiate was never been easy. its haunted me, even till now. i even started this poor blog back in 2009 as a journal to record my own progress. but then. i look back. all i have wrote in this page are just mere disappointment. as if i have lost my self in time. therefore, i hide all my previous entry. grab my shoulder and shake myself to the extent i need to slap my face hard so i can gain my composure. but i do believe, i'm not a quitter and never been one.

tiga... my pak cik said "to love and win is the best, to love and lost is the next best". thanks pak cik! you're my source of inspiration. by the way. my love life is so funny. you will laugh till you start crying. so i'll just say that... i have love a frog... a prince... an oldman... an idiot... a protector... - i have love the beautiful... the ugly, the rich, the poor... i have love with all of my heart and i'm proud of it.

fourth... sebagai seorang perempuan. saya menyedari satu kelemahan ketara. we are never... never ever been satisfied with anything. dikurnikan sesuatu tapi masih mengimpikan sesuatu yang lebih. contoh, masa rambut panjang, tengok orang rambut pendek... sangat chic, cantik... then rasa yang kita juga boleh carry that style. then, you cut your hair. by the next day, you start crying and regretting cutting your long wavy hair. perempuan... perempuan.

sekian. terima kasih. as-salamualaikum w.b.t.

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Mengarut Di Hujung Tahun

setengah dari diri yang berkata-kata atau dalam bahasa inggerisnya, half of me talking.....

jika aku mati... sebentar lagi, dalam kiraan 1 2 3 4 5...
jika aku dilanggar lari ketika berjalan pulang... dan aku terkulai kaku disitu...
jika aku tidur dan tidak terjaga lagi, beku dan putih... tiada subuh di pagi dingin... 

dosa yang menggunung mencecah ke awan ...
pahala seperti daun kering yang di bawa arus sungai hilang di lautan...
jiwa merangkak ke syurga dikala jasad berlari ke neraka...

dan cerita...
dan aku adalah penulis
dan kamu adalah karya agungku...
dan demi masa...
kisah ini belum berakhir...

p/s: lapar pagi-pagi ni, nak pergi makan pagi.... - "mengisi perut itu adalah satu kewajipan" .... dalam erti kata lain... "mencari rezeki itu juga adalah satu kewajipan".

*iman nur aima*

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Random Thoughts

10 random thoughts of the day:

1. Him :)
ryan gosling :p.... oldman grandpa, i missed my grandpa (tearing up :')... my funny dad :)

2. laundry

3. scared... serious..serious fear of the unknown :'(
hugging my childish self... patting my back... whispering "don't be afraid..."

4. zikir :)

5. work :'(
am i a perfectionist, dumb or just plain weird... (aaarrrghhhh.....screaming)

6. monday :(
seeing the clumsy...
seeing the obsessive compulsive...
seeing determination...
seeing daydreamer...
seeing future...
god...i wish it's friday..

7. stream of thoughts
stop thinking...! stop thinking! stop thinking... just stare the thin air...

8. dating :)
under the moonlight....

9. annoyed
get over it!!

10. my long perfumed hair :)
simply love...

ok...11. bunny...bunny rabbit.... so its 11 random thoughts :))

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, December 8, 2011


there's a hole in my chest that i couldn't digest
painful loneliness that needs to be heal in every single day
it's just empty...i felt emptiness every now and then

hole inside me and here i am tonight crying again without much reasons

o.k lets argue now, emotion vs logic

emotion: i miss some people in my lives.
logic: you want it to be this way. be strong. face it and move on!

emotion: i don't get what i want.
logic: what do you want?? what??! you got everything that you need. wanting is not as important as need. wanting is just desire. God given you what you need. please, i beg you.. be grateful!

emotion: i think i'm lost.
logic: read the Quran. you'll never lost. you'll find the answer. the peacefulness that you need. you're not lost. you're just confused and a bit tired. don't be bother by the unnecessary sadness. Kun Fayakun. That's Allah promise.

emotion: there's something missing. something that's not complete. unbearable sadness.
logic: it will go away. i promise. don't ever miss your solat. that's the source of energy. beg to HIM. HE will wrap you in HIS warmth. for lives is short but believe me, you're not alone. you are never alone. so stop crying.  

emotion: i'll be fine.i'm a big girl.
logic: that's better. now post. shut down the laptop and go get some sleep. it's another big day tomorrow. be content. you're beautiful. you're kind. you're gentle. you're strong enough. you're going to get it through. now wipe that tears and say your prayers.

*iman nur aima"

Monday, December 5, 2011


I run
He followed me behind my back
And the MP3 is playing Cassies's "Is it you?"

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

Saturday, December 3, 2011

New Country: 50/50 brought me here

NEW COUNTRY by The Walkmen

The news is all good
And I'm flying higher
I'm back on my own
Don't worry about me
I got no more baggage
I threw all my old things away

I got your letter
Thanks for the offer
I really don't need a thing
Open the door in front of me

The sun is now shining down on me

Meet me as soon as you can
Bring me the money you owe for me
I'm taking my head out of the sand

Oh, maybe I'll go see the world
There's plenty of places to see
Voices I never have heard
Look at the way it ought to be

Oh, I'm all alone
Oh, I'm all alone
I know you're still listening to me
Isn't a lot as far as I see

Friday, December 2, 2011

i tried distracting myself with a lot of things today but still i failed
and so
i cried like a baby in my bed now
God helps me
make this go away
stop the tears

You're O.K
You're O.K
You're O.K
You're O.K
You're O.K

I have wrote thousands of this but its still makes no differences
If just someone say to me "you are O.K", it sure will make thousand of different.

*iman nur aima*

Monday, November 28, 2011


I dreamt again last night. This is the fourth times as far as I can remember. The first time I dreamt of climbing a staircase was when I’m 17. 10 years ago.

I noted that each times I dreamt of climbing a staircase… I am trapped in situations such as;

There is a dire need to make a serious, rational decision.
When there are choices to take.
When there are consequences involve.
When I see a blurry path and I’m not sure which crossroad to take…uncertainty.
When there are too many questions and I don’t have the answers.

But last night was the hardest, the scariest and the longest trials and struggles climbing the staircase. There are more barriers. More emotions. More figures. And for the first time, I cried. I cried in my dream with all of my heart. And I hated it - crying in a dream because it’s painful.

Even though it’s just a dream
The pain felt real
The fear felt real
The humiliation felt real
The determination felt real
The eagerness felt real

Fourth dreams and I almost reach it...
Almost is better than nothing at all...

*iman nur aima*

Friday, November 25, 2011

Common Boy Girl's Talk lll

Girl: i like you...
Boy: ......

Girl: Why is it so difficult making a decent conversation with you?!
Boy: Why can't you keep quite?

Girl: (Her eyes searching for his eyes)
Boy: (Rolling his eyes)

Girl: Forget it...
Boy: What?

so very common... but i was born to make you happy :)

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Everything went wrong

This whole look i wear to office seem isn't right
The colour is boring
The shawl is not right... the material is wrong
The heel feel hideous
The handbag isn't matched
The perfume doesn't smell nice

My skin colour is pale
My lip is dry and chap
My hand looks old!
My eye lost it shine
My posture doesn't feels right
Feel horribly ugly

People around me are annoying
They did nothing - its annoyed me
They do their works - its annoyed me
They keep quite - its annoyed me
They talk - its annoyed me
Nothing seem quite right
Nothing is right

Searching for myself in the mirror
Stares my face
Everything is right
The only thing that is wrong
it's You!

*iman nur aima*

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Common Boy & Girl's Talk II

Boy: love is like a Santa Claus, it never exist.

Girl: i don't ask you to be believe in love, just believe in me.

as for a conclusion, just forget the boy... love does not need to be convince... it just happen.

update: read the above dialog over-over again while this song played slowly... it's more tragic... (note: i'm trying to be funny :))

*iman nur aima*

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Common Boy & Girl's Talk

Girl: would you be sad if i died tonight?

Boy: nope...

Girl: if you died tonight...i'll be crying my heart out until i collapse so i can face you tomorrow morning...


*iman nur aima*

Saturday, November 19, 2011

where is the fine line between love and hate?

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Puisi Rangga

sekali ini juga aku ingin lihat karya syurga dari mata seorang adam...

Monday, November 14, 2011

meninggal dunia sebab makan hati

orang kata "dia meninggal dunia sebab makan hati"... from my understanding... a person yang makan hati is sort of a person who suffers from nervous breakdown; unimaginable depression, despair and dejection.

bearing in mind that there are people "yang meninggal dunia sebab makan hati" and from my own personal observation... i concluded that:

if i have a problem,

"i don't talk much about it... i mentioned it but i don't discuss it in details... i believe i can solve it on my own". this is find.

if i'm mad,

"i cried... i keep it inside, i rationalize myself, talk to myself that it soon to be over and things will turn out as usual". this is find too.

if i'm extremely sad and depress,

"i sleep". this is not find.

o.k.... here's the scary point that i discover. when i'm in the state of extreme sadness and depression. i sleep. i shut my brain and my body. i can literally shut myself for hours even day without food and water and i cried in my sleep.

in short, it is not impossible "untuk meninggal dunia sebab makan hati".

lay me in white bed
 thank you.

pic:no end to design
*iman nur aima*

was laughing and crying
all at the same time in my car today

but hey...
what actually did i feel?
happy or sad?
i guess i'm just one disappointing lonely miserable egoistic childish person

laughing at my stupidity
crying over my determination

girls are complicated
forget it

"perempuan itu rumit... maka lupakan... lupakan"

*iman nur aima*

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Daddy said "dear, perform your solat before going to bed... if you perform your solat and you died in your sleep... my redha is with you".

Me... just like a little child... trying to hold my tears in agony...

I love you daddy... 

*iman nur aima*

Friday, November 11, 2011

Esok itu Tomorrow

lagi-lagi esok...
esok la fikir...
esok la jumpa...
esok la pilih...
esok la tanya...
esok la nak marah...
esok la nak bagi tahu....
esok laaaaaaahhhhhhhh...!
lagi-lagi esok....
kalau esok mati...
tak tunggu esok nya pula nak tanam... tau taakk...!!

apa yang esok-esok ni....? 
Esok itu Tomorrow...
suka hati kamu lah....

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, November 10, 2011

i love you idiot!

enough said!

truly yours,
Iman Nur Aima

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

i have so much energy
i need a focus
i'm starting with love

Thursday, November 3, 2011


In the future
Time become the Currency means Time is Money and Mortality

4 minutes for a cup of coffee
2 hours for a bus ride of 2 hours walk
7 days and a half for a hotel meals
2 months for a 1 night of a standard hotel's room
One second for every single breath you take

Freaking scary when human being stop ageing naturally but they started counting their time...
 They can live as long as they want...
Live as long as they can...
As long as they have time which is equal money... 

Therefore, the wealthy can live forever...a decade...a century...
The poor die young...merely by years...days...or worse..minutes...
Living day to day basis searching and adding some more time...
To replenish the clock of life.. powerful time is...
How freaking scary if we know when our time is up.... 
00:00:05 4 3 2 1 second to die... 00:00:00

P/s: the movie is simple but the message is over powering for those who think....

Sunday, October 30, 2011


dah lama tak menulis
dah beku
dah rapuh

sedangkan idea itu ada
sedangkan menulis itu adalah kesukaanku
sedangkan cerpen dan skrip itu adalah temanku

perlu cari semula semangat menulis
perlu cari semula angan-angan zaman remaja
biar hidup dalam mimpi
jangan hidup tak bermimpi
kosong dan hambar

*iman nur aima*

"Read, read, read. Read everything—trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the most. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it is good, you'll find out. If it's not, throw it out the window."
William Faulkner

Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can see only as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way."
E.L. Doctorow

aku mahu lampu meja di tepi katil
aku mahu cadar putih bantal kekabu
aku mahu ada lilin warna merah dan ungu tersusun

lipat helaian kertas
letak himpunan kisah ini di meja sisi
aku pulang dari kayangan

lena dan bertasbih
terasa jari ini digenggam

*iman nur aima*

source: noentodesign

Thursday, October 27, 2011

no end to design

Found and has been following a blog that is just so freaking awesome!

i can imagine myself on that couch reading Nicholas Spark... i'm a minimalist.

pasta or curry? anyone... my kind of kitchen...

heaven in the house...winx winx...

Source: no end to design: morning selection:

Wednesday, October 26, 2011


This glass is half empty
This wallet is nearly empty
This house is full but empty
This heart is totally empty

The emptiness of space and time
Waiting for you to come

*iman nur aima*

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

The Red Balloon 1956

The Red Balloon 1956 movie PLOT:

The film, which has a music score but almost no dialogue, tells of Pascal (Pascal Lamorisse), who, on his way to school one morning, discovers a large helium-filled red balloon.

As Pascal plays with his new found toy, he realizes the balloon has a mind and will of its own. It begins to follow him wherever he goes, at times floating outside his bedroom window as Pascal's mother will not allow it in their apartment.

The red balloon follows Pascal through the streets of Paris, and the pair draw inquisitive looks from adults and the envy of other children as they wander the streets. At one point the balloon enters Pascal's classroom, causing an uproar from the other students. The noise alerts the principal, who becomes angry with Pascal and locks him up in his office until school is over. At another, Pascal and his balloon encounter a little girl (Sabine Lamorisse) with a blue balloon that also seems to have a mind of its own.

In their wanderings around the neighborhood, Pascal and the balloon encounter a gang of bullies, who are envious of his balloon, and they soon destroy his new friend.
The film ends as the other balloons in Paris come to Pascal's aid and take him on a cluster balloon ride over the city.

For more story and pictures of the movie The Red Balloon - Visit this site. Ghosshh...its really sweet, i'll watch it later. The movie is also available on Youtube.

And i just love this song and this music video... watch it to understand - "the head balloon". i guess Damian Rice's 9 Crimes music video were influence and based on The Red Balloon 1956 movie.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

I'm A CREEP - Radiohead

i know you are special
i wish you notice me
i wish you call me
i wish you hold me
i wish you save me
i wish you were here
i wish you love me
i wish us and no one else
but i'm a CREEP

*iman nur aima*

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

if you don't like to be treated indifferently
then don't treated others indifferently

don't use sarcasm to others that you.. yourself find it hurting
so learn
and seriously
what's your problem?!

*iman nur aima*

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Nicest Thing OR Nicest Thought

I THOUGHT that we could be something
But this THOUGHT is killing me

*iman nur aima*

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you'd always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I started listening "seriously" to post-rock band after a friend introduced Explosion in the Sky and right afterwards Mono. Now, I'm addicted to Sigur Ros.

Sigur Ros

And as my brain "stuck" in this boardroom.... attending a meeting, discussing about the direction of the country technology and innovation and commercialisation and gov and industries and universities and mechanism and phase and clusters ...owh God...pls help me ...
i shifted my "mind"...
my body is in this room but my mind is thrown thousand miles away to the unknown as I listen to Sigur Ros's Ara Batur

Goshh...thanks Sigur Ros for this amazing piece.......

i'm into deep

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, September 22, 2011

That's It I'm Losing It

that's it
i'm losing it
i can't take it no more
as if i have no feeling
as if i'm just...things
you are my trouble
i love and i respect trouble
but now
 i'm just tired of trouble
so that's it
i'm packing my stuff
i'm moving away
scaffolding my feet towards another path
goodbye then

Monday, September 19, 2011

i am mad
i am so mad that i can burn this place to ashes with my own anger

Friday, September 16, 2011

Wake up this morning and I'm taking over Your life 
Because I dont want You to get hurt
Because You are not worthy to be hurt
Because You've been through the worse
And I won't let You be in pain once again
Enough said.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011


"i'm back and i'm on a mission to win you"

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

talking about regret

"there is no need to be emotional for the things that aren't yours"

Monday, August 22, 2011

i look and i feel like i'm an idiot
but if its make you feel better then its fine
broken my wing again

Thursday, August 18, 2011

mendengar kata

mungkin kamu tidak tahu
tapi aku benar-benar mendengar akan kata-kata kamu
"peliharalah diri kamu"
dan aku terawang-awang di langit biru
sesungguhnya kata-kata itu besar maknanya padaku
terima kasih untuk itu

*iman nur aima*

Thursday, August 4, 2011

A Week of 500 Days of Summer

This is not a love story.... O.K  wake up!

"This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen, grew up believing that he’d never truly be happy until the day he met the one. The girl, Summer Finn, did not share this belief. You should know up front this is not a love story"

at one slightest moment, i do thought that this is a love story 

i watched 500 Days of Summer weeks ago... i have this habit to watch movie that i like countless of time...but i'm not sure if i would like to watch this for the 2nd or 3rd time...not that i don't like 500 Days of Summer... maybe it's just to much for me to bear....i cant decide who am i, am i tom hansen or am i summer finn... i used to be summer, i thought so... but now i'm tom, i think so...anyway, this movie is in my list of most adorable movie... it's just linger in my mind for quite sometime... probably, when i have the courage to really reflect who am i, i might watch it heart...

Kudos, the movie script is just awesome... the final talk between Tom and Summer is_____ (i don't have a word yet)..

Summer: i always loved this place, ever since you brought me.
Tom: What's not to like?
awkward silence....
Tom: So... i should probably say congratulation.
Summer: Only if you mean it.
Tom: In that case...
He doesn't say anything. This makes her smile.
Summer: So... you're ok?
Tom: I will be. Eventually.
Summer: Well that's good.
Tom: Yeah.. i quit the office.
Summer: No kidding? that's great Tom, Really.
Awkward silence
Tom: And you're married...
Summer: Crazy, huh?
More awkward silence. This one goes on a beat longer. and then..

Tom: You should have said something.
Summer: I know.
Tom: At the wedding. When we were dancing.
Summer: He hadn't asked me yet.
Tom: But he was in your life.
Summer: Yeah.
Tom: Why'd you dance with me?
Summer: I wanted to.
Tom: You do what you want, don't you? You never wanted to be anyone's "girlfriend" and now you're somebody wife.
Summer: surprised me too.
Tom: i dont think i ever understand that.
Summer: Tom...
Tom: No, seriously, i mean, it doesn't make sense.
Summer: it just happened.
Tom: But that's what i dont understand. What just happened?
Summer: I... Tom... I just... I woke up one day and I knew...
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What i was never sure of with you...

owh...just read the script... will yaaa.....

"if tom had learned anything.. it was that you shouldn't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event".

Song that goes along with the movie, Dave Days - My Last Song

and, of course, Adele's Someone Like You, if someone just make a video out of this song,

and i love this vid and the song too though i'm too lazy to find out who sang it :)

owh...have i mentioned that, i have learnt long long time ago... that... "if you love someone, it does not mean that you have to be with that someone"....  this is heart breaking...

p/s: i'm winter ...