mimpi masa depan

Semoga aku mimpikan seseorang yang berbau harum dan selalu mengucapkan salam kepada ku.

Selamat bermimpi.

how much is too much

"nanti awak bosan dengan saya.....when you had enough of me, you'll get bored, you'll get annoyed, i'll suffocate you, you will not like me the way you used to like me"

"shhhh...how much is too much if its you"

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you

you are so kind

and i love you.

iman nur aima

150 juta kali yang infiniti

Balik jogging dari Taman Tasik Ampang Hilir, idea aku mencurah-curah pulak nak menulis heeee...  Rumah-rumah area situ cantik-cantik kot! *Jaw drop* Serius punya cantik! Tapi kalau ada orang offer...tak pe lah, no thank you... kehkeh *macam lah ada orang nak offer* hehe. Sebab aku nak rumah yang simple-simple jer... otak aku ni sangat lah realistic. Tak minta lah yang besar-besar, mewah-mewah mahupun yang tak tercapai dek akal...

Ape yang aku nak ek??? Hmm... aku naaakkk...*pintal-pintal janggut sambil berfikir*

Owh.. aku nak bila bangun pagi, aku tengok muka dia. Kitaorang akan breakfast makan buah-buahan dan sayuran dan tak lupa juga susu segar *jaga kesihatan kannn*. Rumah kecil berwarna putih  dan di tepi nya mengalir sungai berwarna biru, hijau dan turquoise. Dalam sungai tu ada kura-kura, ikan kap, ikan emas saiz gergasi dan juge nemo! Ikan kaloi pun aderrrr....

Sudah breakfast husband aku pun beransur untuk ke tempat kerja, husband aku tak perlu pergi kerja jauh-jauh sangat > kalau rindu, senang nak balik rumah kehkeh... Kerja dekat-dekat jer, traffic jam kalau jauh, mesti dia stress nak sampai tempat kerja. Dia pergi kerja naik helicopter, asap heli tu berwarna ungu, pink, baby blue, jingga dan berperisa strawberry *heli mesra alam*. Bunyi heli tu gua kata sama lu orang sebijik macam suara Taylor Swift! *ngahahaha*. Tempat kerja husband aku di tingkat 1059 di Burj Khalifa, Dubai, kalau korang nak jumpa dia. Kena buat appointment dulu dengan Mr.Gandalf yerr di tingkat 1001.

Apabila aku siap mengemaskan dapur selepas breakfast dan sudah terdengar bunyi heli suara Taylor Swift tu sayup-sayup *lagu love story okeh*, aku menapak lah kebelakang rumah. MasyaAllah, terbentang luas ladang yang aku usahakan selama ini...ada tak aku cakap aku kerja ape? Ni aku nak cakap ni *big grin*... kerja aku adalah sebagai petani. Kat ladang tu ada kucing telinga cotton folds, ada Richard Parker, kuda belang, elephant, Peter Pan, Tinkerbell dan juga teddy bear. Setiap batas ladang tu ditanam dengan tanaman yang berbeza seperti lollipop, pokok durian, sugar cloud, bayam dan pelbagai jenis bungaan warna pelangi. Aku suka sangat duduk di beranda rumah mengadap ladang itu sambil minum earl grey dan kunyah cekodok pisang menunggu husband pulang penuh sabar...owh...aku dah terdengar dah lagu Taylor Swift’ love story...siap-siap nak salam tangan husband...

dreamland

Adeeeiii..merapu-rapu tahap kritikal lah aku ni...panas ni... demam kot...bye lah korang...

p/s – bahagia itu cuma kita yang rasa, bukan 150 juta kali tapi infiniti =)

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but he said

There's so many things happening right now, and i feel a little agitated, troubled, nervous, uptight, excited etc...but he said,

and i...let myself breath slowly...

p/s - i need to write these things called 'feeling'...*later..*later

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cantik

aku mimpi tentang sepasang suami isteri malam tadi (tak dak benda lain nk mimpi dah?). 

yang si suami tu cakap....

"dia semakin cantik, lebih cantik dari waktu mula-mula saya jumpa dia. dulu pun dia cantik, sekarang pun dia cantik... malah, bertambah-tambah cantik setiap hari! dia sungguh-sungguh cantik... 10 tahun, 20 tahun, 30 tahun... dia isteri yang cantik"

berapa banyak cantik laaaaaaa.... anyway, the wife dok genang-genang ayaq mata... so aku tak boleh lah nak gelak banyak sangat... aku ikut genang ayaq mata sekali *big grin*

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he and she

i see a man

he live

he work

he love

and he stop


i see a woman
she love
she love
she love
and she stop


i see them, they died in the end.

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garis

aku boleh jadi gila kalau terus-terusan diuji sebegini.

tiap kali aku nampak gadis berwajah putih mulus lagi suci, aku doakan dia untuk kau tahu...

bukan aku.

takkan pernah aku.

teringat karya puisi tentang dua garis lurus yang melintang

seperti itu

ya, tak ubah seperti itu

dua garis lurus.

arrghh..tapi aku lupa siapa penulisnya? apa tajuknya?

sepert itu juga aku harus lupa subjeknya, maksudnya.

sebab jika aku ingat, aku jadi gila.

celaru! dua garis itu macam kau dan aku.

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the thing that i say less - thank you

never heard i say it right for so many things you gave? but i do want you to know.... i'm grateful for whatever you've given me - the flowers, the chocs, the books, the perfumes, the helps, the waits etc etc. 

thank you. InsyaAllah, i'll return it someday. 

just be patience and i'll improve and you'll improve...and we both be a better human. amin.

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no more games

that's right, no more games for me! no more hide and seek!...no more try to catch me if you can! no more it's a thrill lets get crazy! i'm done! i had enough...

time to turn to the next page...
more amusement is waiting for me to embrace...
more excitement is looming in the horizon...
hail to a new chapter...
hail to a new beginning...

Alhamdulillah for the fresh start!

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idiot dan dreamer

aku tanya sepatah

dia jawab sepatah

aku tanya dua sepatah

dia masih jawab sepatah

ok. that's it!

tiada progress

aku penat!

sungguh! kamu tidak menarik lagi!

sungguh! aku tidak tertarik lagi!

sebab kamu an idiot!

dan aku? owh nooo... aku seorang dreamer!

dungu kedua dalam puisi ini. clap clap!

hidup dalam halusinasi tahap mega

ya! kamu berdua - idiot dan dreamer

wake up! wake up!

its a star cross love!

pengakhirannya - big bang!

poisonous!

yes! binasa

exactly! celaka

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kehendak setiap orang

but you.... and i'm... its sad...

I’m kinda miss you

Yepp...it’s has been awhile... 3 months, 15 days 6 hours and 9 min and 12 sec... (kidding, i’m not that crazy to count). But to tell you the truth; I’m not sure whether I’m glad, sad or just overwhelmed with this kind of progress. It has been awhile I didn’t hear your thoughts. I didn’t hear your voice, can’t remember your face, forgotten what and how the small things can bring a smile on your face. And I definitely don’t know how and what to feel anymore.

I wish... somehow guiltily I am wishing to hear you breathe...here, right in front of my eye but naahh... This! Here at this moment... This kind of situation is just perfect! Won’t ruin it! Won’t ruin it eventhough I’m kinda miss you... I’m missing you a lot that I never thought I possibly could. By just seeing your name can give me such a pain! How bizarre is this!

But nevermind... nevermind....

With tons of love,

Aisyah

p/s - seronok layan perasaan?....teeehehehehehehe.....boundaries girl!...know your boundaries (-_-!) slap my head pretty hard! errr... (sakitlahhh)..

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dream

i can only dream -sigh-

goodnight

i turn the light off and i cover my body with a thick blanket up to my ear lobe and once i put my head on the pillow - i'll start weep...and weep and weep till i fall to deep and uneasy sleep... i murmurs "macam mana kita boleh jadi macam ni?" with tears running freely. goodnight!

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the pain of leaving

every night i fought these tears, i fought the pain in my chest, i swallow hard and bite my lip so i won't shriek out of pure intangible pain that i suffer. i'm leaving and something inside me snap each times i thought about leaving. i will not wake up to the same atmosphere again, will not hear the same musical voice again. my feet will not walk the same path again. owh god, my heart lash out of agony just thinking about it. sooner or later, reality will struck and i know i got to heal back. heal fast and starts again.


“The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

p/s- the silent, the quieter i do it, the lesser the pain.

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not real

yes!

he's not real

he's only on your mind!

it's just a name

it can fade from your memory!

he's not a person you've known 

you imagining him

you created him

it's delusional

wake up!!

he's not real

"this" is not real!

this feeling is fake!

its never been real!

and don't even bothered to shed those tears!

you silly girl!

you've been deceived!

mislead by your own spotless mind!

wake up dammit!!

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raindrop

yes, i don't mind if its with you.

source: tumblr

the end

i didn't cried and i didn't fought back

i knew it since last night

situation accepted

the end

"need someone new, we have lost that unique emotional attachment, you have driven me away or is it me?"

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