Dream

I dreamt again last night. This is the fourth times as far as I can remember. The first time I dreamt of climbing a staircase was when I’m 17. 10 years ago.

I noted that each times I dreamt of climbing a staircase… I am trapped in situations such as;

There is a dire need to make a serious, rational decision.

When there are choices to take.

When there are consequences involve.

When I see a blurry path and I’m not sure which crossroad to take…uncertainty.

When there are too many questions and I don’t have the answers.

But last night was the hardest, the scariest and the longest trials and struggles climbing the staircase. There are more barriers. More emotions. More figures. And for the first time, I cried. I cried in my dream with all of my heart. And I hated it - crying in a dream because it’s painful.

Dreams

Even though it’s just a dream

The pain felt real

The fear felt real

The humiliation felt real

The determination felt real

The eagerness felt real

Fourth dreams and I almost reach it...

Almost

Almost is better than nothing at all...

*iman nur aima*

Common Boy Girl's Talk lll

Girl: i like you...

Boy: ......

Girl: Why is it so difficult making a decent conversation with you?!

Boy: Why can't you keep quite?

Girl: (Her eyes searching for his eyes)

Boy: (Rolling his eyes)

Girl: Forget it...

Boy: What?

so very common... but i was born to make you happy :)

*iman nur aima*

Everything went wrong

This whole look i wear to office seem isn't right

The colour is boring

The shawl is not right... the material is wrong

The heel feel hideous

The handbag isn't matched

The perfume doesn't smell nice

My skin colour is pale

My lip is dry and chap

My hand looks old!

My eye lost it shine

My posture doesn't feels right

Feel horribly ugly

People around me are annoying

They did nothing - its annoyed me

They do their works - its annoyed me

They keep quite - its annoyed me

They talk - its annoyed me

Nothing seem quite right

Nothing is right

Searching for myself in the mirror

Stares my face

Everything is right

The only thing that is wrong

it's You!

*iman nur aima*

Common Boy & Girl's Talk II

Boy: love is like a Santa Claus, it never exist.

Girl: i don't ask you to be believe in love, just believe in me.

as for a conclusion, just forget the boy... love does not need to be convince... it just happen.

update: read the above dialog over-over again while this song played slowly... it's more tragic... (note: i'm trying to be funny :))

*iman nur aima*

Common Boy & Girl's Talk

Girl: would you be sad if i died tonight?

Boy: nope...

Girl: if you died tonight...i'll be crying my heart out until i collapse so i can face you tomorrow morning...

awkward

*iman nur aima*

where is the fine line between love and hate?

Puisi Rangga

sekali ini juga aku ingin lihat karya syurga dari mata seorang adam...

meninggal dunia sebab makan hati

orang kata "dia meninggal dunia sebab makan hati"... from my understanding... a person yang makan hati is sort of a person who suffers from nervous breakdown; unimaginable depression, despair and dejection.

bearing in mind that there are people "yang meninggal dunia sebab makan hati" and from my own personal observation... i concluded that:

if i have a problem,

"i don't talk much about it... i mentioned it but i don't discuss it in details... i believe i can solve it on my own". this is find.

if i'm mad,

"i cried... i keep it inside, i rationalize myself, talk to myself that it soon to be over and things will turn out as usual". this is find too.

if i'm extremely sad and depress,

"i sleep". this is not find.

o.k.... here's the scary point that i discover. when i'm in the state of extreme sadness and depression. i sleep. i shut my brain and my body. i can literally shut myself for hours even day without food and water and i cried in my sleep.

in short, it is not impossible "untuk meninggal dunia sebab makan hati".

lay me in white bed

 thank you.

pic:no end to design

*iman nur aima*

was laughing and crying

all at the same time in my car today

but hey...

what actually did i feel?

happy or sad?

i guess i'm just one disappointing lonely miserable egoistic childish person

laughing at my stupidity

crying over my determination

girls are complicated

so

forget it

"perempuan itu rumit... maka lupakan... lupakan"

*iman nur aima*

Daddy said "dear, perform your solat before going to bed... if you perform your solat and you died in your sleep... my redha is with you".

Me... just like a little child... trying to hold my tears in agony...

I love you daddy... 

*iman nur aima*

Esok itu Tomorrow

esok...

lagi-lagi esok...

esok la fikir...

esok la jumpa...

esok la pilih...

esok la tanya...

esok la nak marah...

esok la nak bagi tahu....

esok laaaaaaahhhhhhhh...!

lagi-lagi esok....

kalau esok mati...

tak tunggu esok nya pula nak tanam... tau taakk...!!

apa yang esok-esok ni....? 

Esok itu Tomorrow...

suka hati kamu lah....

*iman nur aima*

i love you idiot!

enough said!

truly yours,

Iman Nur Aima

Alhamdulillah

i have so much energy

i need a focus

and

i'm starting with love

In-Time

In the future

Time become the Currency means Time is Money and Mortality

4 minutes for a cup of coffee

2 hours for a bus ride of 2 hours walk

7 days and a half for a hotel meals

2 months for a 1 night of a standard hotel's room

One second for every single breath you take

Freaking scary when human being stop ageing naturally but they started counting their time...

 They can live as long as they want...

Live as long as they can...

As long as they have time which is equal money... 

Therefore, the wealthy can live forever...a decade...a century...

The poor die young...merely by years...days...or worse..minutes...

Living day to day basis searching and adding some more time...

To replenish the clock of life..

Time...how powerful time is...

How freaking scary if we know when our time is up.... 

00:00:05 4 3 2 1 second to die... 00:00:00

P/s: the movie is simple but the message is over powering for those who think....